How can it be Halloween? What Has That to Do With 12 Step Recovery?

HalloweenOh good grief! Today is Halloween and I’m the original Grinch about Halloween.

Why? Great question.

Until very recently I’ve considered that Halloween was largely a chance for middle class kids to beg for candy – not a pretty picture and not fair either.

Over the last few years I’ve also really recognized that my Halloween is the day before millions who celebrate the Day of the Dead. As I understand it, the Day of the Dead is simply a remembrance of those who have passed and maybe some prayers or other thoughts to help them on their spiritual journey.

Which, it turns out, is pretty much what Halloween is or used to be all about.

A change in attitude about Halloween

Last night I was poking around online and saw a bunch of costumes that people have made for Halloween. For the first time in ages I thought it might be fun to make or get a costume and go to a party. It seems I’m no longer embarrassed by the idea! Yippee!!

It’s doubtful it will happen this year, although I’m willing to be surprised, but I think I’ll do that next year.

What a change in my attitude!

How did it happen?  I don’t remember any conscious recognition that it really isn’t fun to be a Grinch about anything, but I’m betting I heard myself talk about not liking Halloween and decided that I really didn’t like my attitude. In fact, I recognized it was a peculiar sort of snobbishness. For a long time I felt or thought I felt superior to those who like Halloween. Utter nonsense, mostly. And untrue. And no fun.

For the last couple of years I’ve been much more neutral to the holiday – and now have started to shift toward discovering if I can enjoy it or not.

This is not a big deal and it is

Liking or not liking Halloween isn’t very important in the grand scheme of things. Being willing and able to let an non-self-supporting attitude go is.

This turns out to be another ‘fruits of sobriety’ type of story. It’s a great example of 10th step work. I growled and grumbled for years and one day stopped long enough to notice I wasn’t having fun with that attitude. I recognized I could let it go, and it went. Now I’m close to adopting a whole new way of thinking.

Do you see what I mean? As near as I can tell we never stop growing. Seems like we’re built that way. Can you tell I like sobriety and being drug free? I do. I surely do.

How does it seem to you?

Love and blessings,

Anne W. Powerfully Recovered

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